The post today is about if I have been or still am being pursued by a former love. Well no. So there. LOL That was quick and straight to the point, huh?
I actually want to talk about that. Some people get off with being chased or being the chaser then once they have their "prize" they're bored and ready for the next chase. It happened to me many years ago when I was the chaser and the recipient of my affections didn't return them back. He was a player and didn't want to hurt my feelings....yadda yadda. But like all chasers I didn't take no for an answer b/c I was so caught up in the chase. I don't know what it was - maybe it was a talk with a friend or I shook myself into the common sense era - but one day I said "fuck it then". I stopped chasing him. I stopped seeking him out. I just stopped. I do remember that it felt like a huge weight was lifted off of my shoulders. It felt amazingly good. Once I stopped that's when he started chasing me. Hilarious! It was crazy. I laugh at it now. It was so freakin' childish. The whole concept of pursuing someone when they don't want you is ludicrous. Why put yourself in such an awkward position for someone who doesn't care about you? Who doesn't want to be in your space in the way that you wish to be in theirs? That's sad - the desperation.
I look back and wonder why would I subject myself to that. Then my mind wanders onto the fact that, as a child, I "chased" my father for years b/c I wanted him to love me as I loved him. That longing and urge to be loved back never left me. It was always there and continues to be (a little). I think if you ask the chasers when were they first rejected and by whom and they probably would admit to saying that the rejection was when they were young and by someone very close to them like a parent or sibling. That's my theory about the 'hot pursuit love' (adult) scenario. That would be the only way to explain why an adult would chase someone who doesn't want to be chased.
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